Yup, more people think I should not get a car. The easy thing to do, is not to offer them a ride in my new car ever!
The hard part is overcoming it and be forgiving and generous to these people, which is what I should do to be a follower of Christ.
This afternoon, I came across this verse:
"But the things that come out of the mouth come from the heart, and these things defile a person."
Matthew 15:18
These people have no idea that they have hurt me with the things that they have said. And I shall learn not to be like them and say things that will hurt other people. This is also why I am very sensitive to what is being said about me.
Even before I came to know Christ, I always believe that there is no smoke without fire. So some people will say that they meant what they say as a joke, but I don't think so. It simply means that you think unkindly of me, and that is why you "joke" about it to put it across to me "nicely".
I wonder how would these people feel if I also "joke" about them unkindly, and then say: "oh, it's just a joke mah...I don't mean it."
I learnt another meaningful thing from Father Stephen Yim today. He said that people are not interested in what you know until they know you care. Which again struck a chord in my heart.
I think all these angst these past few weeks regarding the car has a purpose. It has made me realise how words can really hurt. I hope God can give me the grace to be slow to anger and be more loving and generous towards other people.
I hope to close this chapter soon, and just get on with life.
